wif every step i took.. the excruciating pain in mi ankle got more n more unbearable.. wif every breath dat i took.. i felt mi heart increasingly engulfed.. the stress on ur mental state went beyond the peak and even the las few steps to the finishing line.. try as u might.. u jus cant kick.. n ur bloody legs jus refuse to budge or i cld haf easily trimmed away dat few seconds..


yes it's the much hated 400m sprint..

u noe 400m is like for dose elite hu haf both stamina n the kick.. n can sprint damn well... im neither n everytime i go for 400m i really feel like im gng thru so much pain n torture for the trophy..

actly dis time was the worst 400m i ever had in my life lah... 78 seconds is really atrocious shit timing.. but aiya.. the waves n waves of relief aft crossing dat finishing line made up for more den the torture i went thru=P neh mind lah in the end if i nver get anithing oso wu suo wei.. after all wif dis kinda shit timing if i still can get something is jus by pure luck n yaa nor do i truly deserve it aniwaes..

at least i cleared mi all three events dis yr.. 2 track one field... PHEW!

sometimes u see certain things u find an eyesore yet u noe u cant do anithing abt it.. sumtimes u see certain wrong things happening yet u noe u cant interfere.. i dont feel helpless but more of a sense of lividness n frustration cos i haf been really restraining mi impulsive personality.. but sumhow it doesnt feel good on mi conscience either..

althou we always say.. in the end if anithing happens it's their own fault.. cos dey brought it upon themselves.. our hearts will b telling us otherwise becos we noe very clearly dat frm the start.. if we had done something to prevent this frm happening.. it might nt b the situation it is today..

o wells.. i was wondering of the limits n boundaries our minds tend to set for us.. i dont bliff dat dere r certain things guys do dat gals cant do.. for e.g. i dont like the appalled and big reactions wen i say i wna go thru NS or i tink gals shld go thru NS...
to whatever. i realised we tend to set our benchmarks.. n it's limiting us sumtimes...


mi incoherent tots but anihows...i really mus get dis off mi chest:
i really so so so so so soooooo cant stand guys hu beat ard the bush..
i suggest dey learn frm mi n b more straightforward..
u call urself a man... !@#$%